Day 26

My veggie soup, when I just started it!

Those crackers are unsalted and for 5 its still 60 calories and 100mg of salt.....smh

 This machine above is a death machine....I have almost passed out twice from it.  I do 50, 50 pounds on each leg, but I know its what I need to work to get my "fat pad" above my butt off.  I dread it, but at the same time look forward to this machine everytime.  I'm dieing when I do it, but I can feel it working and so its like a little high with me.

Today, all I had was 3 bowls of soup and water.  I'm getting to the point where I'm dreading eating again and have to FORCE myself to eat.  I would honestly rather feel like crap from not eating, then to eat.  I have been like this for a long time, but don't understand why I struggle with it.  Its not that I think I'm going to get fat if I eat, I just have no desire too.  I KNOW I need to eat in order for me to lose weight and so its a battle that I deal with.  Working out, eating better, no sweets, I mean those are things that are easy to me.....eating is the hard part.  

I have this new little regimen that I have been doing.....I have been doing the hour treadmill, 30 minute circuit that consists of cardio and weights and then to the Leg and Back room, which has 4 machines I bust my butt on.  I know soon I will have to change it up, but until then, I have enjoyed working hard and sweating like a pig in the gym.