Day 4

Yesterday was an off day for me.  I still did everything I wanted to achieve in diet, but I was just so exhausted that I was out of it almost all day!  Now I'm not sure if its because I'm eating better and eating when I'm supposed too, but my stomach has been acting up since.  I don't know if its cleaning me out or what, but its annoying.  I also find myself hungry after I eat, like uncomfortably hungry.  In fact yesterday morning I ate more cereal then I wanted too, because I knew I was going to be working, but still took me a snack for midtime, and when I got to work, my stomach was hurting because it was so hungry.  My manager ended up giving me an apple and I ate the midtime snack which was a whole wheat strawberry bar and that did me over till I got home.  I struggled when I got  home with cooking me something.  Its not that I wanted to go out and buy fatty foods, I honestly didn't want to eat anything, but knew I needed too to keep my metabolism working.  That's one thing that I noticed I'm struggling with is eating all the time.  I did end up cooking white rice with 4 chicken breast and I cooked it with some Teriyaki.  I ate one chicken and rice for lunch, then one for dinner and my grandpa had one and I saved one for lunch the next day.  I think that's all I ate yesterday.

I took down my decorations and it ended up being around 11pm and I had planned to work out after I got done.  Well when the time came, I was so tired, because the night before I couldn't fall asleep and so I only got 3 hours of sleep that I was exhausted.  I had bought some 5 pound weights and thought I would just work on my upper body, since my legs were kinda sore, but decided NOT TO BE LAZY and just go get my work out on even if its 30 minutes.  So I did!!!  I worked out for about 35 minutes, I pushed myself to a level where I wouldn't regret it the next day, but would still feel the burn and still got my heart rate up. 

The back of my heels are rubbed raw from my dang tennis shoes that I had to put on 2 pairs of socks AND  a bandaid on each heel.

The positive thing Ive noticed so far this week, is that I'm not bloated like I used to be all the time.  Ive stopped with all the unnecessary salt and extra calories.

Ive been so busy lately and working out, tracking my food,  and remembering when to eat that it has been on my mind so much that I'm letting all the other things that I need to get done, go. 

The negative thing about my diet I have noticed, is I have been a complete Bitch lately.  I'm not even like pmsing.  I don't know what it is, but I have concern for myself and others in my path!!!  I don't want to be like this, I'm not craving anything or feeling like a druggie or smoker would.  I'm still eating everything I like and would normally eat, just more often and smaller meals, so I'm not going crazy for anything that its making me grouchy.  I don't know.....maybe I'm wearing myself out and  my body is in denial of what I'm pushing it to do?!  I mean, I don't know!!!! 

I'm hoping Wednesday when its time to weigh in, I see something, even if its a pound loss.

So on my other blog, I posted this picture yesterday and thought it would be a good picture to put on here since you can see some sort of weight loss just in my face.  Ive always had chubby cheeks, in fact, my  mom used to tell me of a story when she had me.  I was born C section and my mom was drugged up from the medicine and she remembers hearing my grandma go, "look at those chipmunk cheeks".  So there you go....I was born with them!!! haha In the picture, I obviously don't have alot of makeup on and I'm cheesing stupidly, and in the other picture I'm not, but I wanted to take the first picture of me in my blog which was in December of 2009 and then my last picture, which I took of me yesterday and just to compare.  I really was going to compare how my baby face went away, when I went through a divorce, but then I saw, to me, a big difference in my weight just in my face.  I think the highest I can remember being was 286, which freaked me out, because I knew 300 was around the corner and as of Wednesday I am 258, so that's almost a 30 pound weight loss.  I would love to hear your opinion on the picture.