Day 31

Here it is.....the last day of the first month of my diet and things have been looking up weight wise, but then I just had an interference of everything.  I did weigh in today and I didn't lost the 5 pounds I wanted, but did lose 4.  I didn't get to go yesterday to weigh in cause of my lack of car and my work, but I did get to go today.  So for the first month, I am down a total of 19 pounds.  I cant complain, I feel good and ready to get the rest off.

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I went to the ER about 6am since before that I had went to Walgreen's twice for some kind of medicine relief and it wasn't happening.  I get there and they get me a room and it seemed like forever before I got any medicine.  I understand the whole process of just not giving me something and trying to figure it out, but I was in so much pain and so weak that I was about to throw a fit.  Finally they came in there and helped me and I got some fluids, pain medicine and nausea medicine and then I finally could sit down.  The worst of it all was the pain in the back and then the soreness of my stomach and not being able to get comfortable in any way I moved.  I couldn't sit, stand, lay down, nothing!! I was all over the place and they knew it, cause even when they switched nurses, she had said I was all over the place and now I was sitting in the bed.

I just thought my hiatal hernia was flared up, but she kept pushing on a certain spot on my stomach and thought it could be the gallbladder.  I knew it wasn't the gallbladder, because this all felt like I did before when my hernia was inflamed.  She still proceeded to order an ultra sound and what do you know......I need my freaken gallbladder out.  I don't have time for this.  This is the second time, (first time was appendix a year ago) that I'm sitting in the ER pissed off, because I need to work and provide.  I don't have a mate to lean on and to take care of the stuff I cant.

They did say that it wasn't an emergency surgery and so they released me.  I'm sitting here now, in a bit of pain drugged up, but still living.  I think the first thing that came to my mind was "how am I going to work out?".  I knew the recovery and soreness from surgery it was going to delay me from not going Ham in the gym.

Well, right now I'm on the Barat diet, with just applesauce, bananas, toast and rice.  I'm okay with it and I really don't know if I'm going to get my gallbladder out soon.  I'm going to more details of that in my other blog.


So this is day 3 of not working out and even though I REALLY wanted too, I need to be smart and listen to my body.  My body is SUPER sore, like I was in a car accident, because of all the throwing up, heaving and inflamed gallbladder.

Please say a prayer for me.....I hope that I can live with this for awhile, until I can afford surgery and be able to get off some time to recover.

I still really want lose weight and get healthy and I just don't want this to set me back from getting to my goal.

I did take the last picture a few days ago, so it wasn't a Thursday picture, but I'm glad I did, cause I don't feel like doing it all now.....so this is the first month!!

What I think is crazy is how I look fatter on certain weeks than the week before, lol.  But its all a working process.....