Day 9

This is an early blog, because I want to relax this evening and work out later.  I am eating a late lunch which I hate because work extended and then I needed to run some errands before I got home, so here I am cooking now.  Its okay though, I wont eat much and then eat maybe around 8ish, but Ill work out around 11 so it will all balance out.

I did go weigh in today and I'm excited to say for the first official week of dieting, I have lost 5 pounds from last week.  I was really nervous, because I knew I would get discouraged if I lost like a pound or even gained anything. 

So, this is where it gets tricky....When I started my diet, I said I wanted to lose 80 pounds.  I knew I wanted to be from 180-185, so that fell in that bracket.  My starting off weight from the 6 week challenge was 263, today it was 253.  Apparently I thought it was 6 pounds, when last week it was only 5, which is fine, but right now to get to my goal of 185, I need to lose 68 more pounds.  So in general, I have lost 10 pounds, but need 68 more.  I still want to fall in the 180-185, but a number is good to keep when you push yourself every week. 

I know my pounds are going to fluctuate and they arnt going to be 5 pounds every week.  The only thing I struggle with  now is that I'm not going to be weighing on that scale anymore and when I weighed in on a different one, it said I had gained a pound (Monday, today is Wednesday), when this one said I lost 5.  So I might go to Planet Fitness and take my shoes off and weigh there and see what theirs says and go with that or subtract or add from the Y's.  If it was a pound or two, I wouldn't care, but this was saying I was 6 pounds heavier on this one machine and that could be a weeks worth!

So I'm feeling good, excited I'm officially 10 pounds down since December 5th, when really I started my diet 9 days ago.....5 of those pounds was just because, I guess, and the other 5 were hard work and dedication.  I love the fact that I am having results so soon, because it motivates me even more. 

This really is a mind game.  It has taken me my whole life, to be this dedicated and determined.  I have alot of friends actually who wants to lose weight, but still struggle and is not motivated to really put 100% in and I totally understand.  I have been there several times, but its when you really want something, is when you will try and put all your effort into it.  I really wanted to stop drinking soda....so I did.  I really wanted a baby, so I tried every month with all the calculations and understanding my body.  It was work.....it was studying....it was a life change for both of them, but I did it. Even though we wernt successful with carrying a healthy baby, God has his reasons and I'm okay with that.  I just want everyone to know that if you really want something, you can do it!!!  But you do need to ask yourself this.....HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT???? 

{Another thing.....I know my self and I cant take a full day off of working out, because I dont trust myself that the following day, I will go back, so until I have confidence within me and assurance.....I am going to have to work out, everyday, until I know and trust myself that I will get back to working out after my day of rest.  You know your limits, you know your weakness, YOU HAVE TO DO WHATS BEST FOR YOU IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOAL!!!}